wow [30 Mar 2006|02:48am] So I decided to write in this thing because I havent in ages- its funny how God works in people's lives. Its funny how God uses "failures" to teach us his best. I look back at my life at things that I dove into and now realize all those things had a unique purpose. For a long time I had this idea of what a relationship should look like and what love should feel like. For a time, I gave up on many of those things because I just figured it wasnt realistic...but now I know that God never intended for me to give up on anything...giving up is a sign that some things werent meant to be...and for good reason- and I can live with that- Its just crazy because when I was not looking at all...this girl just walks into my life and just blows every expectation I had out of the water...and the crazy thing Is if I didnt go through some of the things that I did in my past- I might still have a settled version of the desires of my heart- there was a time in the past when I threw around the phrase "God I think is giving me the desires of my heart"- but now I can see the truth- the desires of your heart is never a compromise for anything- never settling for anything less that all my hopes and dreams- that God had such a much bigger plan with someone who truly was my match and created just for me- and I dont know what to do with myself- its so joyful- so incredible that sometimes I think it cant be that easy- but it is- and I love it- and I love her so much- and I dont have to rationalize or account for it- its just this unstoppable force that consumes the two of us- and I know that I will always be with her because I couldnt imagine a life without her by my side every day- to not have that would just be a sorry substitute for what an amazing blessing God wants to pour out on me- the crazy thing is that me and both of our whole families see it- they agree- the popular phrase is, "I think she is the one"...its insanse but such a blessing- I have never felt the things I feel with her- thats just the truth- I dont even know what to do with myself sometimes- the only thing that I think that I can do- is let go of anything that would weigh me down and continue to plunge into God's best and ultimately perfect plan for my life- because I see it- and I am so excited- just needed to write that and get it out- I love life- its amazing- i love people- love each other josh post comment

just so you know [21 Jan 2006|10:42pm] I have a secret crush on Lisa Loeb 1 comment|post comment

[23 Dec 2004|11:47am] waiting tables plays a toll on my mind- i keep having dreams like night after night where I am waiting tables and most of the time in the dream everything goes wrong- so i think it sucks because its like i go to work and wait tables and then come home and dream about waiting tables- can i catch a break- lord- the good news is today is my last day and i made a lot of money- im still in one piece and relative positive= so we are good- i rented dodgeball last night- man that movie is so funny- anyways- see ya josh 4 comments|post comment

[19 Dec 2004|01:26am] i think it is funny when i will be checking out random websites- like last night when i was looking at this company called winworld that does websites for people- and I will see something or some style or font or symbol or whateva that is obviously ganked straight from another website. Believe it or not this happens to me all the time. I dont want to do that. I want to make a rule that everything I create needs to be straight from my head- it makes things a lot harder- but I think it will pay off in the end josh post comment

[30 Nov 2004|01:01am] sometimes I wonder why people search and search and search for meaning when they know the truth and know about the one thing that can truly fill and satisfy them- its no use fighting it-ultimately fighting it just leads to a bullet in the head- possibly figuratively or literally- night post comment

[16 Nov 2004|08:21pm] i finished my new website- it turned out well- you should check it out at Cleveland Library 2 comments|post comment

[04 Nov 2004|07:04pm] dear The Shins, where have you been all of my life? 5 comments|post comment

[07 Sep 2004|12:57am] my graphic design assignment for the week- to create a watch- tell me what you think 6 comments|post comment

[30 Jul 2004|01:01am] [ mood | yay ] [ music | some will seek forgiveness- underoath ] i find this interesting- so i ordered my powerbook and ipod yesterday- and it was suppose to take them a couple of days to get the ipod ready to ship- and the powerbook was suppose to ship the same day- the ipod shipped this morning- the powerbook shiped tonight- how rad is that- but i tracked it on the fed-ex website- and the ipod is coming from shanghai- haha rad- the powerbook is in memphis so i will have it tommorow prolly- eat that five business days to get my computer! I was a good server tonight- i made close to 100 bucks on a thursday night- and i held down four big tables without getting overwhelmed- practice makes perfect i guess the polyphonic sphree is good- i bought the cd yesterday- light and day just makes me happy-i cant explain it- but i do really like the concept of their group and their sound- oh and the more i listen to the new underoath the more i want to listen to it- and the more i realize how good and well done it is- that song with aaron from copeland is amazing- that is a great cd- i want the most recent strokes cd but i went from 1800 to ten dollars in my account so it will have to wait muah 2 comments|post comment

[21 Jul 2004|01:10pm] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | acb ] the new underoath- really good stuff the new this day will burn- very impressive he new as cities burn- it will melt your face off- so good i got into a men's apartment at lee- that my friend rocks my face off- just three weeks now and i get to see my one and only- im really excited about that and going back to school right now im in hotlanta with lew and amber- im having an awesome time if you are a male then you should read "every man's struggle"- it really gives you the tools to become the man god truly desires you to be alright im out josh 8 comments|post comment

[09 Jul 2004|09:26pm] hey seriously dont take it personal if i took you off my "friends list"- stupid journals are not signs of friendship- and it doesnt mean i dont consider you a friend- it just means i rarely read your journal- once again- not a personal thing- doesnt mean your lame- just means i dont read it thanks i think its ridiculous to join the "Bush hater bandwagon"- especially when you do it because everyone else seems to be doing it- and you have no clue whats goin on- grow up and all this bush hating really does get to me- it angers me- no president will ever be perfect- there are things that bush could have done better- and things he did well- frankly the president recieves to much credit when things are good or bad- my history teacher use to say that- bush is paying for many of clinton's mistakes economically- but of course he gets the fall for it- if kerry gets elected some of the stuff bush is doin will go into effect and things will get better- and kerry will get the credit- its pretty ridiculous to me- but most importantly- bush knows he cant run this country apart from the guidance of god- im thinking kerry thinks he can run the show and totally pull it off- doesnt work like that- dont jump on a propaganda bandwagon with your head up your butt- k i had to vent josh 12 comments|post comment

[20 May 2004|09:31pm] [ mood | weee ] [ music | brand new ] i bought a guitar today so that i can write stuff- this is it and it makes me happy heh i noticed that i mananged to post pics on two seperate occasions wearing the same old american dream shirt- purely coincidental- so bite me 12 comments|post comment

[20 May 2004|12:55am] i know i was planning to not go to that man shows in the future but holy eff man 1.bury your dead and on broken wings 2.life in your way 3.fear before the march of flames 4.andrew w.k. all of these are totally worth my time and money 5 comments|post comment

[16 May 2004|01:19am] [ mood | missin you ] [ music | new new found glory- yipee ] ok so my parents are cooler than yours because they turned my room into this..... 4 comments|post comment

[14 May 2004|10:45pm] i havent been on a computer in awhile- ive been on what you guess you could call a tour- played some shows- went to the emergency room the other day when something really sharp went into my foot and i started pouring blood- it hurt worse that anything i had ever felt in my life- uh yah- time for a change- keep me in your prayers- i have a lot goin on- god is so amazing and fulfilling 1 comment|post comment

[01 May 2004|02:49am] i love live journal about as much as i like ranch dressing "you will never be as happy as you could be with an intimate relationship with god" this is a fact- if you dont believe it- then you are fooling youself- I really believe that with all my heart- if you dont agree- get famous and rich and have everything the world can offer you- without god- you will wake up one day and realize how unhappy you are- and there is a decent chance youll put a bullet in ur throat- or at least go into a depression- trying to fix ur life with the things that effed it up in the first place- yes this is your modern life- your modern success story- your modern american dream- this striving for crap that doesnt matter until you realize you are completely desolate inside- why get caught up in it- when there is hope and grace now- turn to god- quit wasting your time living for yourself ...and yes I say this to those who reject christ- not the christians who struggle- to them i say- you know the truth- try harder- ____________________________________________________________________________________ Im going to a wedding tommorow- yay- I really like a girl because she is amazing- school is almost over- tour is so close- pray for peace for me and my friends- I love you all night 13 comments|post comment

[24 Apr 2004|03:24pm] my lip ring chipped a little piece of my tooth off when i was sleeping last night- that little piece- i took it out- which makes me very sad- but i figure a good smile is better than a lip ring- :( 8 comments|post comment

[23 Apr 2004|11:15am] [ mood | yay ] [ music | still remains stupid ] k so i ordered the still remains cd and i got it today in the mail- and its so bad- like i just pumps me up- gets me all ready to fight or dance or something i dunno- its totally sweet- you should buy it 1 comment|post comment

[21 Apr 2004|12:41pm] to die with honor is a really good band if you dont listen to them you are stupid go listen to them at pure volume.com its good stuff thank you 1 comment|post comment

[16 Apr 2004|01:09am] if god can heal people from cancer- then its no sweat for him to heal me of some pink eye 4 comments|post comment

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